I’m Depressed.

Posted by on Nov 10, 2017 in Uncategorized | No Comments

Got your attention didn’t I.

Good.

Earlier in 2017 I was depressed and I didn’t know why or where it came from. It snuck up on me and it was terrifying.

The only way you can actually empathize with me is if it’s ever happened to you.
It’s similar to having children or losing a loved one.
You can try to empathize, but you just don’t know — until you know.

I read a few books while in the middle of my depression and this is the best quote I found – from a short autobiography written by William Stryron

“Depression is a disorder of mood, so mysteriously painful and elusive…as to verge close to being beyond description. it thus remains nearly incomprehensible to those who have not experienced it in its extreme mode.”

Again, if you haven’t been through it,
then
you
just
can’t
fully
understand.

It’s not your fault.
It’s tough for us to put into words.
How do you describe to someone that you feel zombied out on drugs but you haven’t taken anything?
That you felt multiple times like you shouldn’t have been operating your vehicle?
That your mind felt like it was a bowl of mashed potatoes that just wouldn’t operate correctly?
That you cried uncontrollably, but for no apparent reason?
That you just wanted to sleep the day away?

See?
Those descriptions don’t do it real justice.
So I’ll share this again because it’s the best I’ve got:

“Depression is a disorder of mood, so mysteriously painful and elusive…as to verge close to being beyond description. it thus remains nearly incomprehensible to those who have not experienced it in its extreme mode.”

And it’s one of the reasons I’m sporting a mustache in November — or Movember.
To raise awareness.
I wasn’t going to wear the ‘stache, but I became motivated to join Team Mo’daly’s after I had Matt Lemond on our YouTube show [watch below].

And if you’d like to help men stop dying too early from prostate cancer, testicular cancer, and mental health issues — then by all means click here and donate.

And if you know someone that has battled with any level of depression, just be there for them.
It will be difficult for you to understand.
In fact, if you haven’t experienced it yourself, then you won’t understand.
And that’s ok.
Just be a fortress.
Be a shelter.